note to myself

I love...I Hate

I love the sound of the rain, dripping onto the windowsill.

I hate the sound of the faucet with water trickling down the drain.

I love the sound of my children’s breathing, sleeping just next to me.

I hate the sound of my snore, wakes me up, and sleep is hard to come by nowadays.

I love the morning sunshine, the chirping birds on the tree.

I love the morning dew, little droplets of water on my feet as I cross the grass-covered lawn.

I hate the mid afternoon humidity, thick and heavy air, sticky skin and saggy hair.

I love the cool breeze from an early evening stroll, arm in arm with someone close. 


I love...I hate. But mostly I love :)

Politics

Me and my husband may disagree on some matters but often, we do tend to look at some matters the same way. Especially in politics.

We love our country.  We do what little we can as ordinary citizens to contribute to the welfare of our nation.  I bring my own re-usable grocery bag when I do my grocery, I save the plastic spoon and forks from McDo and Jollibee, I teach my kids to use the aircon as little as possible (tipid din sa kuryente!), I am buying two garbage cans for our "dirty" kitchen at the back of the house to help teach my mom and dad to segregate -- which by the way is an aggressive drive right now by the local government of Pasig headed by Mayor Eusebio (must applaud him because of this) calling the program BAZERO for zero basura.

We obey traffic rules even if we see incompetent MMDAs sprawled in the streets of Metro Manila.  We pay our taxes correctly and on time.

While we as simple and ordinary citizens do this and obey, it is disheartening to see public officials, who are supposed to lead by example, violate and squander!  What's more disheartening and actually makes me "irita" are personalities who was able to hold a public office (na mataas na position pa!) and was not able to  perform his duties and roles as a public servant, talk now as if he was able to eradicate graft and corruption, uplift the lives of the poor. When in fact they only used their time in power enriching themselves and the people with close connections to them. Hayy, these people.

Sometimes I feel that our country is hopeless. Seeing and experiencing first hand what it's like to have dealings with government people.  Those in the highest of positions are the ones using their powers to make those under them adhere corruption, dishonesty, cheating and deceit for personal gain.

But I am still hopeful. It should start from me and my husband, teach our children what is wrong and was is right; what is just and what is unfair.

Little things, everyday things that we do and think can be a contribution.  I am still hopeful.

my 2012

According to....

horchow.com

Came across Horchow.com and immediately I'm hooked!

Horchow.com is an online luxury mail-order catalog which features unique decorative items from around the world.

Here are some of my favorites.

Next time, I'm ordering :)

heart and soul

I am aware that it is not just the physical body one should take care of. What's more important, for the physical to be healed, is for the heart and soul to be healthy, happy, content.  I learned it the hard way because as much as I am aware of this, I was just looking out for the physical. 

But now, it's time for me to take care of my heart and my soul.  What my heart longs, i will provide. What my soul need, I will seek out.

Soon, I know, I will be free.  Free from unnecessary worries. Free from people who do not contribute to my well-being. Free from people who practices values that are against mine.

Soon I will be with people who are completely on the same page as me.  We will pray and work hard so that our goals will materialize for our own and for our family's sake. We will share knowledge. We will not be greedy. We will enjoy life and practice the true meaning of work-life balance. We will take care of our heart and soul as much as we are taking care of our physical needs.

My heart and my soul, soon will be much more happier.

cross road

Happiness is relative. So is sadness.

Often times we create our own happiness and our own sadness.

But there are also times, when we are happy or sad because of a person, situation or event.

I worry a lot. A lot that it gets me sick and makes me very sad. This is something that I need to control...for myself and especially for the people that gets affected because I'm a worrier. My family for one. My kids who I know, even if they do not say anything, can feel that their mom is bothered by something. And I don't want that.  I don't want them thinking that and I don't want them to worry about me.

I am at a cross-road right now.

One day I will be feeling confident and knows exactly what my next steps are.

The next day, I'm completely unsure and puzzled and afraid.

I pray to God that he gives me wisdom and strength to decide and plan for the things I need to decide on.

I pray that He continue to shower me with His light and love and that I may use these to understand and give compassion. I pray. I pray. I pray.