cross road

Happiness is relative. So is sadness.

Often times we create our own happiness and our own sadness.

But there are also times, when we are happy or sad because of a person, situation or event.

I worry a lot. A lot that it gets me sick and makes me very sad. This is something that I need to control...for myself and especially for the people that gets affected because I'm a worrier. My family for one. My kids who I know, even if they do not say anything, can feel that their mom is bothered by something. And I don't want that.  I don't want them thinking that and I don't want them to worry about me.

I am at a cross-road right now.

One day I will be feeling confident and knows exactly what my next steps are.

The next day, I'm completely unsure and puzzled and afraid.

I pray to God that he gives me wisdom and strength to decide and plan for the things I need to decide on.

I pray that He continue to shower me with His light and love and that I may use these to understand and give compassion. I pray. I pray. I pray.